Hi Ho, Hi Ho, it’s back to work I go…

I have been trying very hard to find something I can do part time in the evenings or for part of the day to help bring in a little bit of money. About a week ago, I got a tip that there was a billing position available that I might be interested in. I shot off my resume, and heard the next day that the Vice President had got me an interview for the next day. It all started on a Sunday, and by Friday I had an offer for a full time job. We feel like the way this fell in my lap is totally a God thing. Not exactly what I had in mind…that’s for sure. But I trust that God knows what He’s doing. My first day will be tomorrow. I’m trying to get used to the idea of waking up early…and waking Olivia up early. She’ll be with our neighbor, which makes me feel better than she’s so close to home and with someone who I know is so good with kids. I have been so blessed to spend these last 18 months at home with my sweet little lady, and now it’s time for me to get back out there!

The hardest part right now is that it is inevitably looming over my head…Wednesday slowly approaches. I know that it will come and go, and I will survive. But for now, it’s hard to make it seem real. And Olivia hasn’t quite been herself lately. She’s been sort of clingy and lovey. It’s almost as if she knows, too, that the very special time we’ve shared over the last 18 months is coming to an abrupt end.

I feel like being Olivia’s mommy has become my identity, and I’ve been perfectly and totally okay with that. I’m a little nervous about getting back out there and making sure I haven’t lost it! But I’m grateful for the opportunity. Lots of changes in our lives of late. I think (or I guess I know) it will get easier and easier as time goes on. Going back to “work” (work outside of the house) in addition to being a mama must have it’s challenges…ones I can’t even begin to know about yet. I will take it one day at a time. We’ll be okay.

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